Day for Night dreams

September 28th to October 4th

WORST

It is 10:32 pm. I finally make it into bed, thank GOD I made it before 11!  Have to get up for the gym at 6:30 am and if there are few sleep interruptions from the Babyhead then I should be in good shape.  But as I so desperately want to drift off to Dreamland my very busy Momma-brian starts to run.  Now all I can do is go through all the things I need to try and get done then worry about the fact that I remember now...but will I remember in the morning? Is there something important that I am forgetting? What about all those emails I have piling up in my inbox? What about all the unfinished projects? What about the laundry? Oh yeah, and what about my child? Am I giving him enough attention? Am I feeding him the right foods? Why does he seem to smile and laugh more with Eli then with me? Does he know how much I love him?  What about that baby food maker I wanted to get? What about his college fund?  What if we start one and then loose all the money because of our country's financial crisis? (Then I started worrying about what would happen if McCain won...don't even get me started.)

Look at the clock...12:05 am. ugh. Look at the clock...1:45 am UGH!  I really, really need to sleep, why can't I shut down?  I know some of you have probably gone through the same situation. But when you become a parent the desperation and frustration doubles because even if you don't sleep the baby needs you to on your A-game...and if you try to explain to him that Momma didn't get much sleep last night and could we please take it easy today, he will just look at you and blow slobber bubbles.

I didn't fall asleep until 3 am only to wake up a few hours later to start another busy day...definitely the worst!!

BEST

Eli and I have been working on creating our own little business...a t-shirt company to be exact. Yes, in my attempt to bring home the bacon and cook it too I decided to create a fun, simple line of t-shirts for the whole family.  Our little project of love is called Symbolik.

Being a first time small business owner I have been feeling my way through the fog of becoming a legitimate business owner. I actually HAD to because I want to sell at the local farmer's market and they are being all fancy-pants requiring seller's permits and tax ID numbers. So I did what every 21st century small time entrepreneur is doing and went to LegalZoom. Let's just say LegalZoom and I have had a love-hate relationship.  Forming the LLC was a breeze, but I went ahead and paid for them to set up all my other needs like State Tax ID, Seller's Permit, and Business License because I am a very busy mommalicious.

They said it was all going to take about 30 days...but 2 months later I still have not received my seller's permit, which I need to get my business license, which I need to open a business bank account, which I need to order my inventory, etc.  In the meantime the summer is slipping away and so are my CFM crowds. 

After several phone calls to "Customer Service" for my-so-called-friend LegalZoom I discovered that somehow some application wasn't completed so they couldn't process the permit.  But why wasn't I notified that I needed finish the application? I don't know Ma'am...So what can I do now to get the permit as quick as possible? File it yourself I suppose, you can go on the Board of Equalization website and get the application...You mean all this time I could have gone to the website and filed it myself? Yes Ma'am...So what was I paying you for? To fill out the application for you based of the questionnaire you should have completed and sent to us...But the questions on the questionnaire are the same ones on the application? Yes Ma'am...So I was paying you to copy my answers onto another piece of paper and then mail it for me...Um, yes.

As I was driving down to the local BOE office to turn in my seller's permit application that I filled out MYSELF I was thinking about how this was for sure this week's blog WORST. I have been waiting for 2 months for a little piece of paper to get Symbolik going  when all I had to do was go online, fill it out, and drive it over...BOOM 2 hours later seller's permit in hand.  But as I walked out of the office building a deep feeling of excitement came over me...it really sunk in that I was going to have my own little business.  

All the mini daydreams of watching families and expecting couples ooo-ing over my fun designs under the shade of a canopy adorned by a banner with my logo confidently reading SYMBOLIK down on Gretna Green Way during a warm Sunday afternoon as other CFM shoppers fill their bags with organic goodies...was about to come true. 

I let my old friend LegalZoom off the hook a little bit, I probably could have done a little research over the past 2 months and figured it out myself instead of damning the institution and the Man for keeping a working girl down.  I drove home with the yellow piece of paper beautifully titled California Seller's Permit sitting next to me...and felt such a wave of pride, excitement, accomplishment, hope, and relief!